Blog 8/29:🙀Scaredy-Cat 🙀

I am afraid of a lot of things. This is a well-known fact within my close personal relationships. My anxiety skyrockets at the thought of presenting to strangers and meeting large groups of people in one go. What if I don’t meet their expectations? I’m afraid of the normal things like the dark, horror genres, monsters and the giant insects of Binghamton. I’m crazy afraid of heights and stay up begrudgingly due to intrusive thoughts of death. I’m shamefully terrified of the idea of “forever,” which in most cases translates as commitment; not just to relationships but also to career choices and future family plans. I’m fearful of not succeeding, so at times I choose to opt out of trying things even though I know logically that it is okay to fail.

On top of everything, I am afraid of my club. They never fail to surprise me with their dedication and are there to do the many things I could not, like editing videos or ordering supplies. They make me question my abilities and cower in fear. They are the family I’ve grown up with for the soon-to-be three years of my life in this university, and I am afraid of leaving them. I am afraid to be left reimagining what was and what could have been.

However, I learn so much from these fears and know they’re just obstacles in my way. My confidence is growing by the day, and I am tackling them one by one as time flies by. Anyways, that’s just a small list of things I’m scared of…. Thanks to all the peeps who make me slightly less of a scaredy cat.

Anna Liu

President